Year end Heartache

Year 09 was such a big blast
My life is like a rollercoaster ride
Full of surprises, unpredictable one
Just in time before the year ends
We decided to end our story
It was the most heartbreaking moment of the year
My heart is like a fireworks thrown into the sky
Scattered all over the place
I know i have to pick it up on my own
But i'm too weak to put back everything into places
Tears continued to fall, im like a child lying on the ground
Feeling so helpless, seeking for someone to cling on
As I realized I was alone, no one is there to pull me up
Heartaches starts to flashed back into my memory
I screamed coz of the pain, it's like I was stabbed my knife
My heart is aching and she's crying inside
This world is so harsh, life has been so complicated
Time for me to have a break, and buried my heart that has been badly broken

I run unto HIM but i never question HIM about my suffering
my only refuge WHO's always been there every time I fall
GOd let may lay down unto your shoulder, your little girl is so tired

Iloveyou

mikai21

My Hero

I was in despair when you found me
I stayed at the corner so you won't noticed me
I tried to locked every door for you not to come in
But you was so eager to save me


You were like a superhero in the movie
Saving a girl who's been crying like a baby
You don't have that powers like the comic super heroes
But you owned a special power, you've ripped off my sadness


Now i do believed that hero really exist
You were the most admirable hero I've ever met
I feel safe just by the words you uttered
Your aura was too powerful,
Just like a metal shield...protecting me from being hurt


Time has come that the hero needs to go
and save other who needs him the most
A unique superhero that's what you are
Thanks for saving me, hope our path will cross again someday

mikai21

Rain oh rain

I need the rain just like a dried land needs it
And cry under the rain so that no one will notice my tears
My eyes can no longer hold the weight of pain
That even my knees are starting to shake I can't control my body
I wanted to kneel down, this pain is unbearable
I was like in a comatose stage
Silently sleeping but continuously bleeding

mikai21

sunset

I was here standing still with eyes locked straight to the sun
The beauty of the sunset was so perfect, it doesn't happen everyday
As i watched the sunset tears suddenly fall down to my cheeks
I tried to wipe it out but couldn't stop it from falling
While staring the sunset I remembered you
You're like a sunset and I was the day
You said goodbye but then you left me with sweet memories
As the sun made a final vow on this day it made me cry harder
I have to wait for tomorrow or the day after tomorrow just to witness a perfect sunset again

mikai21

Dream

Along the way going to nowhere
I took a sleep for an hour
My body is already asleep
but then my mind is wide awake
Preoccupied with your thoughts
On my way i know i have to wake up
but still i tried not to open my eyes
For I know tears will surely fall
I want to sleep a lifetime at that very moment
coz that's the only place where I can be with you..in my dreams


saddest part I still have to wake up
And face this cruel world

mikai21

Darkroom

 I was alone in a dark room for so long
Seeking for some light
I found an opened door
I hurried up towards that door
But when i was about to go out
Somebody shut the door
Now i'm stuck in this empty dark room







mikai21

missing the rain

I miss the beauty of the rain

Watching its' synchronized  movement is like a piece of art

Every drop is like a music to my ears

Like a sweet lullaby that I love to hear

I miss dancing with the rain

The graceful moves that I used to follow

Remembering how it touches my skin

Those tingling touch that makes me shiver

I miss the joyous feeling that brought by the rain

How it refresh my preoccupied mind

It seems so magical and mysterious

Fascinated by every drop that falls

I miss sharing moments with the rain

Laughter and crying moments that we used to share

I miss it's company

When will I see the rain fall again?

mikai21

Girl Inside

Girl Inside

There's a girl in me that wanted to come out

She was a prisoner of my image for so long

I built a huge cage and trapped her inside me

She was screaming but then I played deaf

That girl is trying to sneak sometimes

But I was so selfish I didn't let her out

I tried to hide her as much as I could

Still eager to see the outside world

She was alone in a dark room 

Trying to seek for some light

That girl is tired of being a so-called emo

She was waiting for someone to unleash her

SADNESS and PAIN was been her bestfriend for quite long

Time to introduce HAPPINESS that has been stranger to her

Now I'm releasing this girl that been a shadow of my disguise

Your free to come out now, the world is waiting for you.

mikai21

unarmed soldier

I was unarmed soldier when I came on a battle still eager to fight wholeheartedly,

but as I looked around I was the only one fighting

trying to win a battle though I know there's no chances of winning.

Now time has come for this soldier to surrender and drop the only weapon she had,

she's now wounded aching with too much pain and continuously bleeding.

Love wasn't enough to save me from this battle. I came to realized that no one can win a battle alone.

I'm no loser but then I lost.