I lied

I lied when I say that I'm not missing you
coz the fact is I'm missing you badly
I lied when I say I don't think of you
when the truth is you're always at the back of my head
my heart has its own way of remembering you
I lied when I say I don't love you anymore
I do still love you, you've occupied every surface of my heart


I even lied to myself when I say I was over you
No matter how hard I tried to move away from you
I always failed, as if something is pulling me back
Nothing had changed, the love it was still the same
it even grow more each day

Questions starts babbling on my head
How can one person that I haven't meet occupied my heart and mind?
Why am I standing still when I knew I would lost this fight?
Will my love be enough as my weapon?

one day hero

I wish I can be a hero for a day
So I can save you from despair
Overwrite those unnecessary thoughts on your mind
Replace your sadness with happiness
I'll erase your pain and sorrow
I wish i can put smile on your face
I would hold your hand and whisper to your ears that everything will be fine




But it doesn't mean i will own you
I just wanted to be your one day hero

strike out

I'm not missing you
I don't think of you
I don't even dream of you






and above all
I don't love you.

hmmp

I'm trying not to think of you






but at the end of day





it was still YOU....




I can't sleep again, you're in every corner of my head
But I need to sleep whether I like it or not I need to
I'll just put in my mind that I'm the only one thinking
and that you can't even remember my name
maybe it would help somehow

drop

I will drop the last piece of my broken heart
I'll try not to shed a tear each time my heart remember you
I won't call your name again every time I'm having a nightmare
I'll drop the remaining hopes that leave in my heart
I'll try not to remember you in the midst of my day dreaming

Tonight I'll try to drop my last tears for you
not because i don't love you
it's just this love was overwhelming
that i couldn't handle it anymore
This kind of love makes me weak
I'm no good when it comes to it

I'll take a one big step away from you
I will not look back ,try not give you any glimpse
just let this tears fall as I walk away
I will not listen to my hearts command this time
I'll let my mind do the talkin'




Time to DROP the last 3 words....I LOVE YOU

i did

and I need to drop this feeling here...

Thank you


I fell inlove with you when I was fragilely-human
Every emotions I showed was true, I wasn't faking





The only dream that mattered had come true
In this life, I was loved by you

---if you ever did loved me, even if it wasn't true

ONE BIG STEP

I can't stand pretending that I'm doing ok
I hate to giggle when inside of me is bleeding
I'm still in pain, yes you read it right
And your presence is like a shadow that keeps on haunting me
I've come up with this decision
but have no idea if it will make me feel better, i hope so.
I've think of this for so many times
and after collecting enough reasons
It's time for me to take a ONE BIG STEP away from you.

Space

Sometimes I get laughed of whats happening in my life. It's like a Dejavu, same scenario with different characters. People I trust start lying to me but then despite of what they've done I can't start hating them. I don't even want to leave my life full of hates. And hating them wouldn't even make me feel better after-wards. What I always do I just bend my knees and cry, that's how stupid I am when someone start hurting me.


My mind is pre-occupied with unwelcome thoughts. I couldn't think of what to do.I need space and try to refresh my polluted mind.