A Mothers Love

You've carried us inside your womb for 9months
When we first witnessed the world you were there
You've watched us when we took our first step
We could imagine your happy face at that moment
You were there during our first fall
You've offered us your loving arms so we will not cry

You've pushed us up during our down time
A gently kiss that could remove those sad face
A caring touch that can take away all those fears
We thank God for giving us a mother that was extraordinary
A mother who's love has no boundaries
Someone who can understand our tears and calm our fears

You've never failed to show us your love
We're are wealthy because we have you
Your tender care that makes our day
Thanks for giving us this gift of life

Mama thank you for the guidance you bestowed on us
For showing us the right path and for believing on what we've got
You will always be the most precious stone on earth
You're not just a mother but a best-friend we've known
And a Mother's steadfast love and sent from God above


Happy Mother's Day
ILOVEYOU MAMA....mwah

=mikai21=
08-05-2010

Forest of Pain ©

In-front of me was an old abandoned forest
It looks haunted, you would think that bad spirits were all over the place
I could see the darkness that covers the woods
As the wind blew at the back of my head
I could hear a screaming sounds
I'm running out of time
There's no way out but this dark forest
I need to pass through this
Though fear was all in me I moved my feet forward
I hurdled the first line of the driftwood
I continued running as I heard a crying voice
I stopped for a moment hoping to find the origin of that voice
I walked guardedly, I can feel my body shaking
For the nth time I heard a voice crying
Darkness started to cover the forest
I ran as fast as I could
I felt the tears as the thorn cuts my skin
I tried to ignored them
I stayed focus and continued to run
As if I was a finalist of a race
Eagerness to escape from woods that cries
I'm almost there I could see some lights
People stares me as reached the end of the woods
I was puffing, I lay down on the ground
Looking on those cuts that was brought by the thorns
I wiped the tears from the cuts
I felt pain but its quite tolerable
Grateful that I was able to pass those obstacles inside the forest
but then I need to heal those cuts
I turned my back..I paused for minute
and made a final vow to the dark forest


mikai21™

April 20, 2010
1:20pm-1:57pm

a lost shadow

A Lost Shadow ©

 
I've found a lost shadow underneath a desert sun
She was struggling to seek for shelter but failed to find one
A thousand of attempt had been made but then continuous failure awaits at the end
I looked at her from afar as she kneeled down her knees
I could even see her tears as it falls down on her cheeks


the shadow sat down on the midst of the desert sand
Seems she was waiting for someone to lend her a hand
I walked near beside her and asked for her name
I tried to offer my hand for her to get up
but she refused to answer me back and she didn't even looked up


I moved in a place where she can't notice me
I don't want to lost her from my sight
As I watched her, question started mumble
Why can't I leave that shadow alone?
Why i'm so fond of that shadow?
I started collecting my thoughts
Figuring things out why that shadow looks familiar


Suddenly the shadow stood up
I remembered her moves it reminds me of someone
She walks towards me with a smile
silently the shadow held my hands as she whispered to my ears
"I miss you"



mikai21™

Im Done

I had loved you more than I thought I could
But that love was enough to caused me too much pain
I was liked an abandoned child when you left
Stuck in the corner and trying to hide my tears

I'm tired of being a so-called emo
I feel pity for myself
I'm sick of begging for love
I'm a fragile human so easy to break
yet hard to rearrange

I will no longer believe anyone
I'll play deaf everytime I'll hear something unnecessary
I'll act as blind for me not to see anything that would hurt me
You'll no longer hear any words from me I'll keep silent
From now on i will be a paralyzed

I had reached beyond my limit
Enough of my foolishness
You win, you made me collapse
This would be the last


IM DONE....

mikai21

I lied

I lied when I say that I'm not missing you
coz the fact is I'm missing you badly
I lied when I say I don't think of you
when the truth is you're always at the back of my head
my heart has its own way of remembering you
I lied when I say I don't love you anymore
I do still love you, you've occupied every surface of my heart


I even lied to myself when I say I was over you
No matter how hard I tried to move away from you
I always failed, as if something is pulling me back
Nothing had changed, the love it was still the same
it even grow more each day

Questions starts babbling on my head
How can one person that I haven't meet occupied my heart and mind?
Why am I standing still when I knew I would lost this fight?
Will my love be enough as my weapon?

one day hero

I wish I can be a hero for a day
So I can save you from despair
Overwrite those unnecessary thoughts on your mind
Replace your sadness with happiness
I'll erase your pain and sorrow
I wish i can put smile on your face
I would hold your hand and whisper to your ears that everything will be fine




But it doesn't mean i will own you
I just wanted to be your one day hero

strike out

I'm not missing you
I don't think of you
I don't even dream of you






and above all
I don't love you.

hmmp

I'm trying not to think of you






but at the end of day





it was still YOU....




I can't sleep again, you're in every corner of my head
But I need to sleep whether I like it or not I need to
I'll just put in my mind that I'm the only one thinking
and that you can't even remember my name
maybe it would help somehow

drop

I will drop the last piece of my broken heart
I'll try not to shed a tear each time my heart remember you
I won't call your name again every time I'm having a nightmare
I'll drop the remaining hopes that leave in my heart
I'll try not to remember you in the midst of my day dreaming

Tonight I'll try to drop my last tears for you
not because i don't love you
it's just this love was overwhelming
that i couldn't handle it anymore
This kind of love makes me weak
I'm no good when it comes to it

I'll take a one big step away from you
I will not look back ,try not give you any glimpse
just let this tears fall as I walk away
I will not listen to my hearts command this time
I'll let my mind do the talkin'




Time to DROP the last 3 words....I LOVE YOU

i did

and I need to drop this feeling here...

Thank you


I fell inlove with you when I was fragilely-human
Every emotions I showed was true, I wasn't faking





The only dream that mattered had come true
In this life, I was loved by you

---if you ever did loved me, even if it wasn't true

ONE BIG STEP

I can't stand pretending that I'm doing ok
I hate to giggle when inside of me is bleeding
I'm still in pain, yes you read it right
And your presence is like a shadow that keeps on haunting me
I've come up with this decision
but have no idea if it will make me feel better, i hope so.
I've think of this for so many times
and after collecting enough reasons
It's time for me to take a ONE BIG STEP away from you.

Space

Sometimes I get laughed of whats happening in my life. It's like a Dejavu, same scenario with different characters. People I trust start lying to me but then despite of what they've done I can't start hating them. I don't even want to leave my life full of hates. And hating them wouldn't even make me feel better after-wards. What I always do I just bend my knees and cry, that's how stupid I am when someone start hurting me.


My mind is pre-occupied with unwelcome thoughts. I couldn't think of what to do.I need space and try to refresh my polluted mind.

Year end Heartache

Year 09 was such a big blast
My life is like a rollercoaster ride
Full of surprises, unpredictable one
Just in time before the year ends
We decided to end our story
It was the most heartbreaking moment of the year
My heart is like a fireworks thrown into the sky
Scattered all over the place
I know i have to pick it up on my own
But i'm too weak to put back everything into places
Tears continued to fall, im like a child lying on the ground
Feeling so helpless, seeking for someone to cling on
As I realized I was alone, no one is there to pull me up
Heartaches starts to flashed back into my memory
I screamed coz of the pain, it's like I was stabbed my knife
My heart is aching and she's crying inside
This world is so harsh, life has been so complicated
Time for me to have a break, and buried my heart that has been badly broken

I run unto HIM but i never question HIM about my suffering
my only refuge WHO's always been there every time I fall
GOd let may lay down unto your shoulder, your little girl is so tired

Iloveyou

mikai21

My Hero

I was in despair when you found me
I stayed at the corner so you won't noticed me
I tried to locked every door for you not to come in
But you was so eager to save me


You were like a superhero in the movie
Saving a girl who's been crying like a baby
You don't have that powers like the comic super heroes
But you owned a special power, you've ripped off my sadness


Now i do believed that hero really exist
You were the most admirable hero I've ever met
I feel safe just by the words you uttered
Your aura was too powerful,
Just like a metal shield...protecting me from being hurt


Time has come that the hero needs to go
and save other who needs him the most
A unique superhero that's what you are
Thanks for saving me, hope our path will cross again someday

mikai21

Rain oh rain

I need the rain just like a dried land needs it
And cry under the rain so that no one will notice my tears
My eyes can no longer hold the weight of pain
That even my knees are starting to shake I can't control my body
I wanted to kneel down, this pain is unbearable
I was like in a comatose stage
Silently sleeping but continuously bleeding

mikai21

sunset

I was here standing still with eyes locked straight to the sun
The beauty of the sunset was so perfect, it doesn't happen everyday
As i watched the sunset tears suddenly fall down to my cheeks
I tried to wipe it out but couldn't stop it from falling
While staring the sunset I remembered you
You're like a sunset and I was the day
You said goodbye but then you left me with sweet memories
As the sun made a final vow on this day it made me cry harder
I have to wait for tomorrow or the day after tomorrow just to witness a perfect sunset again

mikai21

Dream

Along the way going to nowhere
I took a sleep for an hour
My body is already asleep
but then my mind is wide awake
Preoccupied with your thoughts
On my way i know i have to wake up
but still i tried not to open my eyes
For I know tears will surely fall
I want to sleep a lifetime at that very moment
coz that's the only place where I can be with you..in my dreams


saddest part I still have to wake up
And face this cruel world

mikai21

Darkroom

 I was alone in a dark room for so long
Seeking for some light
I found an opened door
I hurried up towards that door
But when i was about to go out
Somebody shut the door
Now i'm stuck in this empty dark room







mikai21

missing the rain

I miss the beauty of the rain

Watching its' synchronized  movement is like a piece of art

Every drop is like a music to my ears

Like a sweet lullaby that I love to hear

I miss dancing with the rain

The graceful moves that I used to follow

Remembering how it touches my skin

Those tingling touch that makes me shiver

I miss the joyous feeling that brought by the rain

How it refresh my preoccupied mind

It seems so magical and mysterious

Fascinated by every drop that falls

I miss sharing moments with the rain

Laughter and crying moments that we used to share

I miss it's company

When will I see the rain fall again?

mikai21

Girl Inside

Girl Inside

There's a girl in me that wanted to come out

She was a prisoner of my image for so long

I built a huge cage and trapped her inside me

She was screaming but then I played deaf

That girl is trying to sneak sometimes

But I was so selfish I didn't let her out

I tried to hide her as much as I could

Still eager to see the outside world

She was alone in a dark room 

Trying to seek for some light

That girl is tired of being a so-called emo

She was waiting for someone to unleash her

SADNESS and PAIN was been her bestfriend for quite long

Time to introduce HAPPINESS that has been stranger to her

Now I'm releasing this girl that been a shadow of my disguise

Your free to come out now, the world is waiting for you.

mikai21

unarmed soldier

I was unarmed soldier when I came on a battle still eager to fight wholeheartedly,

but as I looked around I was the only one fighting

trying to win a battle though I know there's no chances of winning.

Now time has come for this soldier to surrender and drop the only weapon she had,

she's now wounded aching with too much pain and continuously bleeding.

Love wasn't enough to save me from this battle. I came to realized that no one can win a battle alone.

I'm no loser but then I lost.