Resting

Letting this love die a natural death
Forgetting the air that he used to breathe
Somehow this love will surely subside
But it’s still my decision and I need to decide

Now I have enough reason to let go
Enough reason not to look back
I know which way to go now
Without nothing holding me back

Time to wipe away tears on my cheeks
Drop all memories and try not reminisce
I’ll make my move one step at time
While singing the song “Better in Time”

I need to give my heart a break
I overused it and there’s a lot of repairing to make
Rest now my dear heart, heal every scar you’ve got
Wake up whenever you want and give your best shot

mikai21

Tears

My eyes has been quite busy
Carrying heavy tears that keeps on falling
Wishing that every tear drop falls will lessen the pain
I wanted it not to fall but couldn't control it

I've been crying a million tears for so long
Hoping there's a way i can stop it
When will i get tired of crying?
Coz im quite sick and tired

Tears keep on falling like a river flow
while mesmerizing the love and pain I had gone through
Wiping away tears on my face
Trying not to leave any remarkable trace

My eyes needs a rest for now
Coz I know she's also in pain like me
Liter of tears is enough for this day
Maybe, or just maybe tomorrow there'll be no more tears will fall from my eyes

mikai21

Hardest Part

Hard to pretend that im fine

when inside of me im still aching

Hard to show some smile

when what I really wanted is to shed some tears

Hard to avoid myself from talking with you

when I really wanted is to talk to you all day

Hard to pretend that im over you

when the whole of me is still stuck with your thoughts

Hard to stop myself from loving you

when i'm already drowning and blinded by this love

Hard to escape from this cage of pain

when the only one who can save me was already gone

Hard to let go of this feeling

when my heart keeps on babbling about you

Hard to forget the love I have once treasured

when I really wanted to keep it for long ,but then I have no choice but to let go

mikai21

No more countdown

No more countdown of pain coz it wouldn't change anything. Pain may diminish each in every day but it will leave a scar that will reminds me how much i hurt. I will welcome pain with arms wide open, i know time will come this pain will have its grand exit in my life. Tomorrow I will laugh everything that happened today. I won't dare to question anyone for my suffering for I know it was my fault after all. I'll continue my life one step a time try not to look back the things that makes me sad. This is a new chapter of my life, new character and some are still there playing there role, a new journey to nowhere.

Tomorrow

Tomorrow i will forget the reason why i cry

I know its quiet hard but I have to give it a try

This desolation will soon be vanish

For I know I can pass through life's harshness

Tomorrow i will reminisce everything about yesterday

The  pain and laughter that makes my day

Though things never workout what i wanted

I'm still doing fine,continuing life finishing what i've started

Tomorrow I will be a better ME

The person that i'm supposed to be

For now i'll let things unfold in their own way

For I know tomorrow will be a better day

mikai21

Day 5 of pain

Today I almost forgot the pain maybe because i've been so busy for the whole day. But now that I'm alone, every pain flashing back to my memory. As I looked in every corner of my room I remembered everything about him as if he leaves a memory in my room. I can feel the emptiness, how in the world a one person i haven't meet had a big impact on me? how he put too much sadness on my face? And why im still loving him after all the pain he brought me? That's the usual questions that keeps babbling on my mind.I scoured for answers but couldn't find any. I'm a bit of muddled now. Controlling myself not to think of him sounds impossible yes it is. But I have to try coz i need to.

Day 4 of pain

As I woke up this morning, there's still dried tears on my cheeks. Trying not to remember the reason why i cried but the truth has its own way of reminding me the pain. I wished in just a snap of my finger i can forget each killing moment but i know it couldn't happen. I know it will take time for me to heal, though i don't know how to start i still have to try, after all i have a life to continue. Maybe for now i'll give my heart a rest, i overused it. I need to tap my self back to life. I need to be strong and firm. I'll pick my heart and make it whole again. This journey is still long way to go.

Last petal falls©

The beauty of my rose is starting to fade

I  can't do anything but stare on it

She looks so pale and sad

What can I do to bring back her beauty that she had

One petal falls each in everyday

I wish I had the power to make that petal stay

Every falls of petal makes my tears drop

Hope i can save it, trying to make it stop

There's only one last piece of petal left

Trying to do something for her to not to fall

I can feel the grief of the last petal

I know I can't stop her from falling

Now time has come for her to let go

She has been so brave carrying  the sadness alone

As i watch the last petal falls

Maybe its time for me to move along.

mikai™

Day 3 of pain

      After a day without a word from him, finally he was able to speak up, he feel sorry for hurting me. But that sorry will not change anything, the whole me is already damaged, the word sorry will not heal the pain. I wished I could learn to hate him but I can't. I still love him despite of what he did and I was so stupid. I've been loving a person who did nothing but hurt me. Forgetting the love i have for him is such a hard thing to do.

       I want to sleep a hundred years just to escape the harshness of life, the sad part i still have to wake up. But then even in my dream i was crying, the pain still lingering throughout my system ,no way to run away from this. I wish I could go back to the time when the only man in my life was my dad, the only bestfriend I had was my mom, and any pain can easily be healed by just a bandaid and lollipop but I know I can't. I have no choice but to face it or else it will break me.